I really needed this today. Lately I've been feeling ungrateful, tired, and depressed. I just have a lot going on (as usual, well more than usual) and I find myself drowning a bit. I'm not the only one out there, there are many worse things happening to others, and I'll get over it.
Yesterday I had a quick talk with my boss about my upcoming schedule, as Lyla goes to school 3 days a week and I'm home with her 2 days a week. I've been stressing, no stressing is not even the word for it. Working from home with a 2 year old is not all it's cracked up to be. But I'm not complaining because I get to be with my daughter rather than have to put her in daycare all week long. With a huge new project I'm working on not to mention my big event coming up at work, conference calls, meetings, and extra work surrounds me daily. Getting a 2 year old to be quiet for an hour during a call? Well it's hard.
Plus I don't want to sit my child in front of the TV all day long - which I don't of course. In any event, in talking to my boss about how flexible my company is with work hours, I don't want to take advantage of it but at the same time I'd like to be able to get up early and work before Lyla is awake and then have a few hours off in the morning to have time together. He was overwhelmingly for it and says he knows how hard I work, blah blah blah... I feel so lucky to be able to do what I want to do because I'm valued at my job. They know I work hard. So starting next week I'll be "out" a few hours on Mondays and Fridays in the morning so me and Lyla can hang out, go to the library, go to gymnastics class and I won't have to feel guilty I'm not working.
I will create the balance if it kills me while trying to be a good mom. I am one lucky duck.